New Places

Going to New places,

New faces, new perspectives 

New existence, 

New perception, letting go of "self", 

          Excepting irritation

                      Explore it (irritation) 

IMBRASE "CRISES", do not fear it... 

      If I let go I can fly to God, 

Straight into His Arms! 

LIVING! TRULY LIVING! 

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Refer to manual... 

Reboot... 

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... As I reboot the system, the mind is driving, driving down the road called "home", but Home Alone is what you'll get and there will you stay, unless summer raise it's gleeming rays! 

The morning blossom is logistic, 

It is the space between the time, 

It's horror comes to light 

When sorrow pearces through the night, 

It's cutting severs every part, 

Though it's essential for the impartation... 

The space the between the time? 

What does it mean I wonder... 

Does it sound like a radio in my head? 

Do I return to selfish disobedience? 

Alas I fear that my revear is mostly for what men consider "lame". Therefore it is not hard to stay on coarse

As no one travels this lonely road, 

It travels long and very winedy, 

You'll never a 4 by 4, or a company vehicle..... 

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Thinking out loud ... sharing

I am here sitting and writing , I should be praying in tongues or reading the bible earnestly , it is 05:47 in the morning , the day will be starting soon . Keren hasn’t woke up yet , though the alarms were going off since 04:30 in our great zeal to rise early and seek the Lord . Yet the soul needs to show it’s true color in order to deal with the controversy and the crisis , if it doesn’t and you don’t deal with it , disaster is looming ahead . The awesome Grace is that God let’s us know of our emotional congestion and dysfunction . We must know what’s going on . There is always something going on in our soul. Especially if you have any dysfunction in the past , either with parents , ex spouses , mental imbalance , drug abuse or alcohol , you name it . For me it’s loneliness , knowing that I am loved . When I was 6 my parents , whom I dearly love , decided to leave me for a year with my grandparents because of financial problems , hoping it would help them cope ( I guess I ate too much or something! ) . So they left , without even telling me good bye by the way . I was sitting in a bath tub preparing for the flight back home ( from Ukraine to Kazakhstan ) when I heard sound of footsteps and a door shutting . I couldn’t believe it , I panicked , jumped out of the bath tub naked and ran to the door ! My grandma ran to hold me and put me back in the tub . I began crying and screaming “ Mama , Papa !! “ --- Abandonment --- what a terrible thing it is ! How sensitive we are as humans to the dynamics of it ! Anything can trigger that sense of loneliness and injustice . The enemy sets us up for years sometimes . Preparing the ground . Rejection here , rejection there , then he pulls the rug from under our feet and Bam ! We are on the floor ! And there is no one to lift us up. Just like my grandparents did , the first voices you will hear are the voices justifying the one who slammed you on the ground : “ Why , they love you , they just thought you might make a scene as you are doing now ! “ “ You can’t blame them !” “ THEY ARE DOING IT FOR YOUR OWN GOOD ! “ . WOW!!!! What a TRAP! How are you supposed to get out of this one !? Amazing! Brilliant actually! It’s like Jezebel ( Izevel ) when she helped Ahab( Ahav) to get the piece of land in Jezreel ( Izrael ) , she accused Nabot the Carmelite ( Navot ha Carmeli ) of blasphemy while being the only righteous man in town , and got his land!!! Unbelievable right ? הרצחת וגם ירשתה?! Said the prophet to Ahab ! “ Have you murdered and also inherited ?! “ this should not be ! but the “king” of this world does it time and time again . Girls are being raped by their fathers and then ending up being ashamed of themselves for the rest of their lives . A man survives an accident feeling bad about not dying with the rest ! … It’s crazy alright , yet completely normal ... If it wouldn’t be for the sudden intervention of the Holy Spirit in the normality of the earthly life it probably would qualify as a type of Hell . In Hell there is no deliverance , there is no second chance ! Here we have the Grace given to us through the Son of God to lead us to repentance by The Spirit Who Is present here on earth… by Love , By Grace … not by force , not by guilt , not through fear and intimidation ! When I experienced the Holy Spirit I haven’t felt the awareness of Hell and how I offended God through my Sin … I had that all my life !!! … this time I knew that the Power I feel is SO real , that I realized that someone LOVES me !!! And it isn’t just anyone … this is GOD ! the One that made the Heavens and the Earth !!! Unbelievable !!! He Loves me ! and He is the Only one that ever Loved me , in fact I never felt love before , 19 years of death ! suddenly after waiting so long , hurting so long , I begin to live ! I guess it was worth it ! Though off coarse thoughts come like , if someone would dare to get to me with the Gospel before , things could have been better , tragedies could have been avoided , yet we should not cry over spilt milk ,it’s enough to just clean the floor and start over ! Psalm 27:1010 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.King James Version (KJV) Psalm 27:1010 Even though my father and mother have left me,ADONAI will care for me.Complete Jewish Bible (CJB) Psalm 27:1010 Even if my father and mother abandoned me, the LORD would take me in.New English Translation (NET) PS: nice melody to listen to while reading and reflecting , pray The Spirit of Yeshua touches your inner man and awakes you to life and revives you wholly ! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yx1U6vqWizI

Love - be encouraged!

Love is not anxious about proving anything ,
Love is free , like the wind . humiliation a breeze brushing your face ,
freedom from anger from haste
- Love is also Power , power that breaks through , brings authority and decision.
Love leads , Love leads to Victory , with no Fear , no Pride , Love covers and protects .
What is Love and how can I be It - Let it Loose Me and let it set me free .
The Son sets free , the Word who was with God , The Utterance of God in manifested form WHO is Him , who is God, where the Spirit is there we can taste Liberty , there I can change ... change , transform , morph into a new being , a new creature , Love ! ....

In The moments you feel God is far from you, know this that God, Jesus, Yeshua is the same yesterday, today and forever! So He will not leave you nor forsake you! But do not stop there, as it is not enough to comfort yourself in saying ,''Well God is always there''! Speak to Him, open your mouth! call upon Him, take time to read the Word and Meditate, write your feelings and thoughts in a journal as if you are speaking to Him! You know God knows how to read too! Challenge God as Peter challenged Him when saying :'' Jesus if that's you let me walk to you on the water!'' He knew that ghosts cant cause men walk on water! So if your life is surrounded with water that seem to separate you from your Jesus, call to Him and ask Him to let you walk over the circumstances right over to Him, and if you start doubting call on Him again and cry HELP Lord ! and He will rescue you again and again! He is faithful and constant and merciful!

A Word...to me.. and perhaps for you too

Standing before you my child ,
Raising my hands to bless you , I smile.
Take my hand and walk with me and I will show you your inheritance.
My Kingdom is yours , and you will eat from the fruit of your labor .
My desire is to give you what is mine , so do not fear the arrows , don't hide from the storm . Stand strong and persevere . The Flames may brush you in battle.
No wound will defeat you , for I am your shield ,no word will mortally wound you as to my Word you will yield .
Raise your wings as an eagle , above the clouds you will fly,
I did not bring you out of captivity so that you should die .
With endurance I grace you , to be strong and courageous,
Hold on to My feet, hold on to My creed.
I will teach you to fly and discard earthly glory,
For the Truth is in Me , in my wounds , in my Story.
Oh son of man , you feel simple , and weak ,
Oh son of man to your spirit man I speak.
Don't forget me so quickly don't forget me today ,
For the night will bring weeping and temp you with fire,
Be strong through self denial , please do not dismay.
I am not just your Lord and not only your Master,
I am your Deliverer , your Hope and your Comfort.
Put your trust in My Breath , your hope is My Faith.
Some things you might never understand,
By Grace you will stand.
Reach out to Heaven , My Kingdom behold.
The Armies of Heaven are your protection,
My everlasting Love is your only Stronghold.

Sin is crouching at the door!

After some time with my Beloved Holy Spirit this morning , I was thinking about the prophetic word of warning from The Lord . Three examples came to my mind :
One is the time when the Word of God came to Kayin ( Cain )warning him from the sin that is seeking to trap and cause him to stumble.
Genesis 4:7
"If you are doing what is good, shouldn’t you hold your head high? And if you don’t do what is good, sin is crouching at the door — it wants you, but you can rule over it." Complete Jewish Bible

Second was The Word that came through Natan ( Nathan ) the prophet to David the King after he committed adultery with Uriah's wife and then assassinated him .
2 Samuel 12
1"Adonai sent Natan to David. He came and said to him, “In a certain city there were two men, one rich, the other poor..."CJB(make sure you read the rest of the chapter, don't be lazy!)

The Third example that again came to mind is the time Eliyahu the prophet came to Akh'av the King rebuking him for the murder of Navot the Yisra'elite .
1 Kings 21
""17 But the word of Adonai came to Eliyahu from Tishbe: 18 “Get up, go down to meet Ach’av king of Isra’el, who lives in Shomron. Right now he is in the vineyard of Navot; he has gone down there to take possession of it. 19 This is what you are to say to him: ‘Here is what Adonai says: “You have committed murder, and now you are stealing the victim’s property!” ’ Also say to him, ‘Here is what Adonai says: “In the very place where dogs licked up the blood of Navot, dogs will lick up your blood — yours!” ’” CJB

( By the way if you were wondering why am I using funny names you don't understand , it is simply to make sure you paying attention ...:-)check out the Complete Jewish Bible )


Did you notice the difference between the first example and the other two? And the similarity? I did too ! Isn't it interesting ?! There are few differences in fact. One clear difference is that The Lord came directly to Kayin and spoke to him , warning him , imploring him not to take the way of anger and jealousy , but to be alert and do right ! In the case of both David and Ach'av the Lord did not speak to them directly ,but through prophets. You know God could have sent Adam to speak to Kayin and convince him in the evil of his direction . And why hasn't God spoke to David directly , after all David had a very strong prophetic gift, just read the book of Psalms, many of the powerful Messianic prophesies are there like the one in Psalm 22. The other major difference I want to mention and is perhaps the reason I decided to write all this is the timing of The Word. But before I speak of this difference it is important to note that all three persons have sinned! Kayin, David and Ach'av fell , and all three committed murder! All three coveted and were envious of what the other had . Kayin coveted the favor and blessing of the Lord that came as spiritual approval and intimacy , David through yielding to the Lust of The Flesh desired the beauty of his servants' wife , Ach'av coveted the field of Navot The Yizraelite  Hevel, Uriah and Navot were all righteous men! They were faithful, and all were victims of other servants of God! WOW! it is amazing the depth of God's Word! I will have to continue this next time as my 2 younger children ( Noakh 7 year old(Genesis 6:8) and Na'avah 5 year old(Psalm 147:1-delightful and how fitting, it is pleasant and praise is becoming) ) and they are running around the house with our dog Sunny the Bichon Frise and acting very "nonspiritual". I am off today to spend time with our four children as they are off from school for the Passover Feast and it is a great opportunity to spend some quality time with Daddy :) . So please come back next time and we will continue our discussion about the Word of The Lord as He comes to us to lead us and bring us closer to Him and His Kingdom!----- Please comment and write your perspective on the above ------- Blessings

                                TO BE CONTINUED.......

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Missing You - a message to the prodigal moments in our relationship with The Father

My Child

Where are you?
Hiding in the Forest?
I am walking in the cool of the day ,
looking for and missing you

Here you are , but you don't see Me
here I am to dry your tears
you hide like a wounded animal
waiting for your healing to come

My Heart is bleeding for my beloved
My beloved who's in pain
I wait for you to reach out
to open your eyes and see that I am here
closer then a shout
a whisper of the heart
I am here to draw out the dart

I know you miss me, I know hurt
I know you are tired of eating the dirt
you have nothing to lose, but the noose
around your neck

Stand up, deliver your self
from the noises from the voices
of all those who "know"
they want you to "flow"
but your heart is sick and I will heal
Your mind is weak and I am still
The Storm that's raging
Peace will come and you will live
Again the hope will flourish
the freshness of the Love will fill
your inner being overflow with Living Water
And joy and dancing conquer death and sadness

My Child

Where are you?
Hiding in the Forest?
I am walking in the cool of the day ,
looking for and missing you

I miss you

"Trust In The Lord with all your Heart"

                               "Trust In The Lord with all your Heart"


Proverbs 3:5-6 

"Trust in The Lord (יהוה) with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths."

Sounds easy right? Yes it does sound easy, but it is not easy to do!

Why is it so hard? Well because it pulls the carpet from under our survival instincts. The verse says : " ..Trust...with all your heart,and lean not on your own understanding..." . This makes the modern man so perplexed. Heart, understanding... what's the difference?! How do you discern , when is it that you Trust God with all your HEART and when it is that you are leaning and relying on YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING? Well I believe that even when we cannot explain intellectually or theologically at least intuitively we must sense the meaning of both, otherwise the Lord would not give us those instructions.

There is a difference between the understanding of our mind and soul and the function of the heart. 

In 1 John 4:18 it says : "There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love." I believe that fear comes from our understanding and love comes from the heart. You cannot love from your understanding! Your understanding is a database, a database of all you experiences and information you gathered in your life. If we study the science of the human brain and psychology we will find that our understanding is not objective. Our database produces decisions upon not only facts and unfortunately this is the usual theological teaching. 

Understanding many time blurs our vision, but through the heart we can connect to the clear vision of things as God sees them! God is objective, God is stable, God doesn't have childhood traumas that make him be impulsive and subjective in his behavior. Unfortunately we are not as God and therefore our decisions are subjective and impulsive and in fact not based on true facts of the earthly and off course the heavenly realities. Therefore we must connect to this place called "the heart" and let it kick in. When fear comes, doubt unbelief, anger, jealousy and all the works of the flesh, connect to your heart and let it trust The Lord with all that is in it. 

God has a good plan for you! He wants to heal your soul and save it and help it to be aligned with your heart. Your compassion, your love, even your brokenness, they all come from your heart. No one sheds tears from his "understanding". Today, I encourage you to go on a quest after your heart. This journey might be the most painful but most rewarding non the less. Live your life without fear, believe in God's Love for you and His desire to strengthen you, comfort you and sanctify you. 

He is the most Awesome One you can encounter, but in His Grace He wants to enter your heart and live there and cause you to Trust Him to see Victory in your life, Peace and bring light to others around you. Those who look they shall find, Jesus said. I pray that you would discover the way to your heart and learn to Trust in Him and not on your own understanding.

1 John 4:17a

"Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness..."